Perseverance does not equal worthiness.
I know how it feels, the upward struggle to achieve the heights of your aspirations.
The bitter taste of rejection and disappointment.
We can deal with it.
I am here for you, today and forever.
Bang.
I slammed the door shut.
And then, there was silence.
You can never piece my thoughts together; you can never read my mind.
I am sorry.
Today, it all falls apart.
Dear readers,
I could only hope that all of it was a mistake - my pragmatism giving way to childish naïveté once more.
A misheard name, a technical glitch or human error.
Today, a dream I had cherished for many a night withered away with the finality that rejection brought. This will not define my worth, but it will be part of what defines me as a person in the many years to come. Forlorn I undoubtedly was, helpless to seek a solution to my misery. Words of consolation cannot heal the wounds inflicted upon my self-worth.
I had failed once again – when it had mattered the most.