Naw. Kan't be. We got it all handled.

Dear readers,

It doesn't take a lot of effort to figure out that the world we live in is a lot more fucked up than we think it is. Mumbai's been bombed. The climate change deal might be stalled. We have got a national emergency in our bloody backyard. Cholera is fast becoming AIDS number one rival in Zimbabwe. And the flipping financial crisis doesn't look like its gonna be resolved anytime soon. Well...and we are all sitting here.  :D 

Anyway, recently some dude in the Ministry of Education (obviously he himself lacks education) was pondering on reverting the teaching of Mathematics and Science to be done in BM. Which I think is a fantastic idea, by the way. Because it will preserve our national culture and our national pride ( whatevers left of it anyways after that disastrous caper at the Asean Football Championship)  and because it will undoubtedly benefit those whom cannot cope with English. I think its a brilliant idea because its all part of the plan,  we want to lose out to countries like Singapore and Vietnam just so that we can keep our country as beautifully preserved as our Muzium Negara. Then again, it's a fantastic decision, its like the sort of decision you would make if you have lost trust in Western society, considering the farce of the financial crisis they are in right now. Har. Har. Har. Well, I am not sure what you have for brains, but I am jolly sure you left some of it in your mother's womb. :D

Speaking of decision, I must say that Decision Mathematics is the most brilliant subject in the world. :D Indeed it is, and I expect to fail the module. :O Yes, FAIL!

Or maybe I will pass. 

On the other hand, we have a wrestling show going on in town. Old people only though. Still its worth watching. There's chair throwing, vote buying and mud slinging. Forget TNA, we got UMNO. (: Lovely to know that this is the leading political party in our country.

In any case, if you are interested to do something to save this planet of ours, go visit www.colourmegreen.wordpress.com because it will do you good. That is, if you believe our world is heating up due to reasons other than me. :P I'm joking.

I got three more weeks. :D  

To whoever I haven't seen, I hope to see you. xD

To those from the boarding school, well, I certainly miss your presence, but we obviously need to have some space to separate us, otherwise we would be throttling each other. 

Cheers. 

These are the days.

Dear readers,

You may have been wondering what has been happening in my life in recent times. (:

 

I am sorry to disappoint because I am still alive and well (FAIRLY well). Yeah. Or maybe you weren't wondering at all. Hmmm...yeah.

In the month of October...

• I went for the Cambridge interviews.

Fluffed it...I think. I am sure! Well, surprisingly the interview did not cover economic issues but too a more mathematical perspective. Indeed. I ain't going to Cambridge after all. :P

• I got rejected by UCL.

Unexplained occurrence. I am not sure why, it's just the case and I gotta deal with it, I guess. I suppose I am not good enough for them.  Pfft. Yeah. It just says my application is unsuccessful. Creatively put so as not to hurt my feelings I suppose. Unsuccessful being the euphemism for REJECTED. lolz.

• I am at odds about my US applications.

Now that I got 640 for Math. Still got an essay to finish for Columbia. 

•  AS is fast approaching.

Yeah. Self-explanatory.

• And...*insert drumroll*...I am a new, new person. 

Said before. But events during the month have forced me to reconsider my life. xD So...yeah.

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Rant.

Which is what I am about to do. I know, that among all my shortcomings and weaknesses, one of them lies bare for all the world to see, that is : I am fickle. Fickle in the sense that I can never decide what I ever want or differentiate between what I need and do not need. 

Fickleness is not an addiction, its a malady that can be cured. My drug is you. And I finally realise after all these years, what I want. Because I am intoxicated by your presence, compelled by the similarities that exist between us and so very recklessly in love with you. What can I say?

Nothing much I guess. What can I do? I don't yet know. 

But I am no longer fickle. Because now I have a reason to wait. 

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It is with great pleasure that I can announce that our best friend Datuk Razak Baginda has been acquitted. 

Apparently, the court could not find any evidence of wrongdoing. Well, then, that's the Malaysian judiciary for you. Brilliant. Well-founded upon the pillars of justice. 

I love this country, don't you? 

It makes my life interesting.

hardyharhar.

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And here we are.

At that time of the year again. Another year has passed. 

I am getting older, and the date when I shall leave to pursue my own life is beckoning. Approaching faster than ever. I can already see that pinprick light at the end of the tunnel. A long way to go, but its been a long way to where I am now. 

These are the resolutions I made at the start of this year.

• Train for swimming. (failed to achieve)
• Do some community work. (achieved)
• Get into LSE, UCL, Cambridge, Columbia or Chicago. (yet to know)
• Go to SEA Forensics again. (failed to achieve)
• Get an internship during the summer holidays. (failed to achieve)
• Work hard for exams. (well...)
• Improve football. (achieved)
• Go for THIMUN. (failed to achieve)
• Make a change. Be SOMEONE.  (well...)

Yeah. The most important things to me...I did not achieve. Well. Yeah.

It is my fault. 

I didn't go to MUN meetings the first two terms because I was at eYES.

Didn't get to go for Forensics because...well...my reputation precedes me. *apparently*

Didn't get an internship because I didn't try enough.

Didn't get into UCL.

So...it can be safely concluded. That I did not do a lot of things I set out to do this year.

New resolutions then. For next year. Soon.

Ciao buddy.

At it again.

Dear readers,

Once again, I am baffled by the stupidity of humanity.

Go get your 40 virgins at a brothel. I don't get what religion condones acts of violence and the pursuit of martyrdom.

What can I say?
We live in f***ed world.

Ciao.

Do you believe in love?

Dear readers,

Love is the most human of all feelings. How long do you think it can last?

Forever? A year or two? A month? A week?

I neither know the meaning of the word nor felt it before, but reading this article was enlightening, how relationships always never turn out to be as they are portrayed in fairy tales, in movies *think P.S I Love You*, in TV shows*think One Tree Hill* and in books.

That pure, unadulterated love loses its allure with the passage of time, does it not?

But I do believe relationships that last tend to gravitate around emotional attachment rather than physical engagements. Then again, who am I to say? (:

See ya.

Paradoxical irrationalities.

Dear readers,

Amidst this pandemonium, of September 16^th, of the expected change in government, the prospect of this messiah saving us from the belligerence of those who refuse to relinquish their power and the incompetence of the illiterate whom continue to hold posts in the government on the basis of their skin colour, we enter a new era of optimism, in expectation of a better tomorrow. For 45 years, we have shirked the ideals of our country’s constitution, let race divide us, let us be misled by status, led modernization trample on our traditions and hypocritically and inevitably all of us demanded a better government as if all the tribulations of the post independent years were to be heaped on to the failure of the government to do its part in the social contract. As we speak, we may hear rumours of political change, of a bureaucracy bed-ridden by the blight of corruption, all of which are trivial when compared to issues that face us today as citizens of this country and citizens of this world. We shield ourselves from in cocoons hoping to weather the “storm” of globalisation that we know will never blow over, we continue our materialistic pursuits in search of a better future that only exists immaterially, we forsake tradition to claim modernization as the tradition of our time, and sigh we shall, this paradox of paradoxes, for these are the real things we should be worrying about as citizens of this country. As it is, it is easier said than done, for we are all humans, compelled to conform and truckle to temptations.

But, I plead of you, to never place your faith in someone so readily, blinded to his faults and intoxicated by his oratory, you might be, and it is your penultimate decision that will eventually shape this country.

So, wake up citizens of Malaysia.

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I know of course, that this is slightly(an understatement) overdue, but I got some stuff to say about recently turned 18 Michelle Kuek. xD You have been a great friend, understanding, caring and always there. I only got to know you well during OBS and I am thankful for that. I helped you as a friend and there is no need to thank me for it, after all, a friend in need is a friend indeed. Have you ever said to yourself, I am rooting for this couple, I hope they stay together, and if they break up, I would be so disappointed. I felt that way about Michelle and Alfie...I rooted for them, for I have never seen such pure and blissful love in a long, long, long time. Indeed. And though, I may not have had the time to talk to you recently, I hope you don't take offence for you will always be a friend to me.

Ciao.

Deleted.

Dear readers,

I don't normally do hate posts.

But something someone told me today made me realize that two wrongs don't make a right.

Ciao.

The most uncolourful post ever.

Dear readers,

Another tag. Have you ever wondered who is so jobless to actually start these kind of stuff?

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 2222

Name: Tai Yang

Sisters: 1

Brothers:

Shoe size: 9/10 depends.

Height: 177 cm

Where do you live: Some obscure place not worth mentioning in Malaysia.

Favourite drinks: Coffee, Kickapoo.

Favourite breakfast: Bread and butter.

Have you ever been on a plane?: Now everyone can fly with Air Asia.

Swam in the ocean: Of course.

Fallen asleep at school: Always.

Broken someone's heart: No.

Fell off your chair: If you know me, I don't need to answer this question.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No.

Saved emails? Of course.

What is your room like: "It's so tiny it takes half a step to get from my desk to my bed!"

What's right beside you: Books, fan, bottle, iPod, phone, tablelamp, file holder.

What is the last thing you ate: Rice, satay and ayam percik.

Ever had chicken pox: A long time ago.

Sore throat: What dumb question is this?

Stitches: Plenty.

Broken nose: Too careful.

Do you believe in love at first sight: No.

Like picnics: Never been on one.

Who was, were the last person you danced with: Do you think I can dance?

You last yelled at: Some kid.

Today did you:

Talk to someone you like: Yeah.

Kissed anyone: No.

Get sick: No.

Miss someone: Yes.

Eat: Another dumb question.

Best feeling in the world: Don't ask me. Can't remember.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Do you want to see it?

What's under your bed: Toilet paper.

Who do you really hate: You really want to know?

What time is it now?: 2243

Random:

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Always has been.

Do you want children: No.

Do you smile often: Yes.

Do you like your hand-writing: Of course. I got the sexiest handwriting in the whole wide world.

Are your toe nails painted: A litany of dumb questions.

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : I don't do other beds. I sleep on the floor though.

What color shirt are you wearing now: Purple.

What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Just came back from dinner and football.

I can't wait till: House Singing. Then it's over.

Are you a friendly person: Of course.

Do you have any pets: Yes.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: No idea.

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now: Yes and no.

Do you sleep with the TV on?: huh?

Have you ever crawled through a window? : No.

Can you handle the truth?: Yes.

Are you too forgiving? : Yes.

Are you closer to your mother or father?: Father.

Who was the last person you cried in front of? No one. I cry when I am alone.

How many people can you say you've really loved?: Infinite love for people.

Do you eat healthy?: Of course I do. I love myself.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Not a single one.

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : No recollection.

If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : No one.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : Hard to say.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

1. I was seven.
2. I can't remember.
3. I was in Sri KL.
4. I was...no idea.

5 snacks I enjoy:

1. Chips
2. Cadbury chocolates
3. fries
4. Japanese biscuits/snacks/cakes
5. Tim Tams!!

5 of my bad habits:

1. Procrastinating
2. Biting my nails.
3. Fiddling with stuff unnecessarily.
4. Too shy with girls.
5. Swearing.

5 places I have lived in: (this year alone.....)

1. Kuala Lumpur.
2. Wuhan, China.
3. Kolej Tuanku Ja'afar.
4. Ran out.
5. Of Places.

Expect a post tomorrow. I have got to introduce you to this bitch I know.

Lights out.

Tag and nationalism.

Dear readers,

Due to the tag being too long and Blogger not having enough colours, I have decided NOT to do the tag.

Ha-ha-ha. I'm not joking.

Cause I am proud to be Chinese and also equally proud to see Malaysia's puny sized contingent march out in the Bird's Nest.

Cause I am in love with the police who have no better things to do than put up roadblocks all over the bloody farking city. And then take pleasure of causing massive traffic jams. I see this as a conspiracy to overload the already overloaded Malaysian public transport system.

Cause I love Russia and Georgia for sparking a huge conflict in the Balkans. Over a small region called South Ossetia. Ossified conflict in Ossetia. :D I like.

Cause I love Paris Hilton for standing up to John Mc Cain a.k.a Old Wrinkly white hair dude*lawl,undoubtedly quote of the year*. Not to mention stupid war veteran monkey boy.

Cause I love that in 2 years time this country of mine will be ruled by a *ahem* alleged murderer.

Cause I love Malaysia is a member of NATO(No Action Talk Only). Action for reform of judiciary is indeed talk only. Action against corruption is delayed talk response.

Cause I also love the fact that I can be arrested for being too seditious. O:

Cause I love everything in this lovely country.

Indeed. Life's good. Why waste it?

Let's just make this country a more fucked up place than it already is. (:

Cheerios.

For those going to UK.

Dear readers,

Tell me, what does a guy say after his personal statement is done?

This, by the way, is a joke.
And I feel like telling jokes today. *smile*

ANSWER: P.S I Love You.

*insert lame-ified face here*

And the saga continues...next week, school commences and I must say, I don't feel that bad.

Can't wait to see the new Lower Sixers.

What doesn't kill you only makes you....stranger.

Dear readers,

As you know, Malaysians like to produce pirated films.

You also know, many Malaysians like movies like I am Legend, Transformers and more recently The Dark Knight.



Haha. Malaysians decided to make one of their own that promises a "fusion" of flavors, a nasty hybrid of I am Legend and The Dark Knight.

What do you get?




His original Batmobile. This is the Batmobile that requires over RM 100K for mantainence.

Brilliant car made by the great company, Proton Enterprises. xD

After all, its "tougher than you think".





So he decided that he needed to get a new ride.

So those guys from Stuttgart decided to PIMP his ride.

Let's waste the rakyat's money by getting a Mercedes Benz E200 Kompressor.

So now I can get to work on time. :D







Who is your arch nemesis, Mr Batman?

The Joker, ha-ha. Looks like someone else likes to play with knives or keris in particular.

Hehehe. Time for sniggers. :)


Why so SERIOUS? Let's put a smile on that face.
And a dent in our Menteri's reputation.

Time-out.

Let's play the same game over and over again.

Dear readers,

In case you live on Mars, let me introduce you to Anwar Ibrahim.


Meet Anwar Ibrahim. (: In this picture, Anwar may look happy, he might sound happy, but he is not happy.

He wants to fuck the government so bad for being brainless. More smiles. (:

Because only in Malaysia can you arrest a man without trial.

That's right Mr NerdoGay. xD

Because we live in a country of monkeys.

Long live Malaysia
Brilliant job.

Lucky number 8

Dear readers,

You know how it feels to get stabbed multiple times.

Well I got TAGGED multiple times: Ying, Nicole, Alvin.

Not as bad, but still, it forces me to update my blog.


8 things I'm passionate about:

1. Football
2. Books
3. Food
4. Friendship
5. The world
6. Idiots, I just can't stand them
7. Finding purpose
8. TeeVee
   

8 things I say too often:

1. Indeed
2. LoL
3. Haha
4. WTF!
5. Fuck!
6. Fuck you!
7. Mai Chi Bai
8. I like...*insert name*
   

8 books I've read recently:

1. Starbucked
2. The Undercover Economist
3. The Last Lecture
4. Tuesdays with Morrie
5. The Tipping Point
6. The Age of Turbulence
7. The End of Poverty
8. New Ideas from Dead Economists
   

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:

1. Move Along - All American Rejects
2. Shine On - Jet
3. Shine On - The Kooks
4. Bright Lights - Mathcbox Twenty
5. Beautiful Lie - 30 Seconds to Mars
6. Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk
7. Burning - The Whitest Boy Alive
8. Monsoon - Jack Johnson

8 things I learnt for ( I would like to point out that the usage of 'for' is gramatically incorrect - the right word should be 'from' xD) the past years:

1. DoTA is bad for health.
2. Love is bad for health.
3. Monkeys are not as cute as they seem.
4. Sri KDU is the worst possible expensive school in the world.
5. I am not gay.
6. I am retarded, or at least I act retarded.
7. I should learn to make jokes at the right time.
8. Personal statements are a pain in the ass, so are teachers.
   

till next time.

Time and friendship.

Dear readers,

Sometimes I wish life could be simpler. Those days come when I remember how life used to be like and how my perceptions of the world were built (naive as they were).

I will always remember, it remains clear to me, those last two years in secondary school.

Maybe it is just the ONE TREE HILL(grrrrr!!!) but I know we are all going to do great things, and I hope one day when we shall meet again, even after we have finished our bachelor degrees, when life would start to revolve around work and our new found independence.

Many of you would have new friends but I know for a fact that all of you played a big part in my life.

Time accelerates complexity. It diminishes simplicity.

Haihz. The inevitability of life.

Bye, I have got class.

Interestingly so we have turned out to be quite boring.

Dear readers,

I ain't sure whether I heard rumor or truth, but APPARENTLY, we are on watch right now.

The government wants to know about random people blogging about even more random things such as preferred sexual behavior, eating patterns and Paul Tan-esque wannabes. Maybe they could decide to ban kennysia for being a faggot.

Since when have bloggers got to be controlled?

Aiming for sedition using one's blog certainly is impractical. So why ban?

No idea. Maybe it's because short of creating a GIANT FIREWALL, we simply decided that blogs were a threat to the security of the nation, more than the threat of an ex-dictator such as Mahathir or the scourge of AIDS.

I have no idea what their idea of fun is anymore.

Certainly they can no longer shoot game in the forest because most game species are already on the verge of extinction. Well maybe bloggers will be extinct soon, its a whole new ball game (pun intended).

EXTINCT dodo

EXTINCT blogger

Cool. Symptoms of negative blogging include twitching in the fingers, suspicious behavior and persistently seditious rants.

Really?

I have got C1, C2 and C3 - and I am blogging now. O:

Well. Just wanna update.

Getting to work. So goodbye.

Can anything go the right way?

Dear readers,

It begs for elucidation don't you think so, why things can never be right in your life.

I seem to always make the wrong decisions.

Screwed up experiences.

Ended up in the middle of nowhere with less of a life than ever.

Trying to stop whining but can't seem to put my life straight no matter how hard I try.

Things just don't work out.

Projects always take an unexpected turn and I have got to bear with all the shit.

I don't even feel wanted in this world.

I can't even have someone name me a best friend. -_-

Too bad.

"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
I'm not going to whine." Robert Frost

Hopefully, Mr Frost. I certainly hope so.

I have just got to try harder, obviously I ain't trying hard enough.

Now that's news.

So, what's the matter? My life is perfect.

Peace out.

I know you are good. You don't need to put it on world news.

Dear readers,

It has come to my attention, that we have a contagion within our midst, ready at any minute to attack.

I have noticed that people, when put into positions of power tend to be rather (I do want to put this in a nice way but I can't) arrogant.

It is that time of the year when scholarships are being doled out like candycanes to children and I can't but help to notice some people seem to think that with their numerous accomplishments that they truly deserve them and a rejection would be a serious dent in their pride.

To be frank, I have nothing against the scholarship holders or the scholarship applicants for the matter. Some of my friends have gone on to apply for many scholarships after the SPM results started coming out, few of them have been rejected, and since then they have appealed to have their applications reconsidered. These people I have respect for.

Tell you what, I have no respect for whiners.

Whiners they are utterly, indescribably and unbearably disgusting to the core.

I HATE WHINERS.

And lately, I have observed this flaw among humans, especially those that are blindly dogmatic about certain issues. Some of them just cannot lose. To be rejected is to have lost. That is fine. There is no harm in feeling disappointment about not getting a scholarship. The best students may have gone through their entire lives without receiving scholarships.

But what pisses me off is when someone insists that he deserves the scholarship and then goes on to blow his bloody fucking own trumpet of all his fucking useless ill-gotten accomplishments in his high school life. You may say I am jealous - tell you what, I am not. That I am sure, I would fricassee my balls for your lunch and serve them on a silver platter to you if you could prove the claim.

Frankly, I personally do not care how great you were in high school...head prefect, vice president of some obscure society, actor in some sad shit school play(!), clearly you weren't good enough for the scholarship. I have never gotten any positions in my high school life, for one, I think you could put that down as much to bad luck as an impression of unreliability on the part of the teachers. I do know that if I were rejected for a scholarship( I applied for none by the way), I would have told myself that I was simply just not good enough.

That I would have done, instead of shooting down my government for not doing anything about affirmative action in my country. So I would suggest that you keep your words to yourself because I don't want to hear them, for better or for worse because they don't matter to me. If you think that you are so great, then maybe you can come talk to me, I shall put you back on track where you belong.

I hate it when people's egos get too big for them.

They seem to gravitate towards the impression that they are the best in the world in nearly everything. It becomes so typical for them to start labeling themselves as the hottest being on the planet or the smartest fucker around. It gets into my face you know, like bird crap on your car window blocking the view of the road. Well, thats normal human behavior, when one exists in a sea of mediocrity, that's the effect mediocrity has on you. It generates illusions that you are the best in the world.

You have changed.

I thought it was normal.

But apparently its not, you just continued getting bitchier.

Too bad, this is tough love.

I know for a fact how it feels.

We all do. But there's nothing any of us can do about it because we can't change you.

And you know I am right.

I am just sad that of all people it had to be you.

Superficiality fueled egoistic behavior. Nice name.

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